New year new er me? i wish!

i had/have all these plans and asperations for this new year of ours.. 2007.. would be the year i get a hold of ocd by its guey tenticles and sling back were it came from.. a couple of problems with that plan, 1, im not sure ocd has tenticles to grab a hold of, 2, were the hell did it come from?.. and er 3, maybe iv bene wathicng too much smallvile,

but realisticly i did/do intend to get more of a hold on this ocd, get my life back.. get me back.. who the hell i am any mor eim not sure i know.. iv probley mentiond it before but i dont know who i am or whats the ocd and whats me?.. i realy should see a docter, but iv resugned my self to the notion docters are useless! theres so many of you out ther eunder docters that are still dealing with ocd on a large scale that whats the poin tin putting myself through the whole fight agaisnt the will to get there lay it out straight and have to listen to them telling me what i already know.. (im not good at that!) plus im anti drugs.. thogh somedays theres nothing i wish for more then to shove something down my enck and shut off my head for a while..

iv been considering treying the herble route.. but i dont know were to start.. i have no clue and id probley end up poinsing my self with overdose of some vitamin or another..! is that possible?.

Iv been using a forum lately i cant rember if i posted this in the llast post of not but its called 'stuck in a door way' just google it.. ill put the link in the links bit.. Iv put some other links in there too.

anyway yes the forum is realy good for understanding all different kinds of ocd.. iv found it helpful.

anyway im gonna shut up for now and take alook around your pages!..