It seems to be becoming a pattern for me to open up the blog sit and stare at the empty box and close it with out writing anything.. iv fallen out with writing about me because i feel boring to my self!
i can rant on and on about ocd about how its effecting me stopping me from doing the simplist of things like having my hair cut going into town day to day living.. but what i cant do is help myself.. iv tried.. and i want it and i just cant do it.. i just cannot bring my self to se ea docter and sit in the chair when asked 'what is the problem' how do i say i have ocd?.. three simple words but they stunt me.. ill end up making something up! or running out of there.. it feels impossible.. but theres only me that can do it..
theres only me that can ask for the help..

Id like to say something realy positive but i cant! ocd has me as pinne dto the floor right about now as ever.. theres alot of stressful stuff going on in my life at the moment so there aint much hope of it easing off..

ah well..

as i said theres only me that can do anything about it.. i guese..