Update of sorts..

Its been a while i think since i posted propely.. the holiday i was so worried about came and went.. it wasnt to bad! and probley good therapy! cause now i dont have such a fear about going away.. which is good.. there were issues but nothing disapearing off to my room alone wouldnt cure.. ugh apart from an argument with dannys Dad on the last night which was unfortunate, he interfeered with dans mum who was cooking and started slopping burgers onto plates.. only im vegitarian, and he slopped one on the plate set aside for my tofu sausages.. 'quickly looked around to see if id noticed' (which i had) but obviously by the look on his face if i hadnt noticedd the burger would of been pulled off and nothing would have been said. then it was ohh ill change the plate which entailed putting the food off the first plate minus burger obviously onto a second plate... i POLIGHTLY mentoind that i couldnt eat the pease and whatnot off the first plate cause the burger had been dripped over it and they would have cow juice on Then almighty fuss was made by his father that the burger hadnt touched them and blah blah blah.. he wouldnt shut up.. so i just stood up and walked out.. later danny coming to tell me they thought i was being awkward.. oh well.. havent been to his parents since or spoke to his sister (who was the one who made the awkward comment) but they dont know i have ocd and i highly doubt they'd understand so so be it i guese..

Been having some mightly awful dreams of late.. ya know the type that stick with you all day and give you that 'ick dread' feeling.. i realy dont like it.. and in my brain unless i tell someone the dreams they'l come true..

*exasperated sigh*

oh well

here goes another day..

have a good one folks and folketts..